Recently I have been familiar with the period between twilight to sunrise. This time is a sweet spot for me. Because this time always has the sweetest and cleanest air in the day. Before people start to move, birds,insects and wild animals shift from sleeping to waking or from waking to sleeping. So I can hear birds singing which is very different from other times. Their songs are similar to their evening songs. But their movements are quicker and more relaxed. When I saw a little fox, I was filled with joy. It was so lovely and had dignity, It made me feel settled.
The direction of the sun is different than in the evening. And this makes the world beautiful. I fell in love with it again as if I did not see any beauty in it before. The beauty in the world which I see also reflects in me. It is a delicious meal for my heart.
Also this sweet time makes me think that night has its back like like parents do for children. So I can deeply appreciate nighttime and darkness.
It is the same as our life. Even if your life looks miserable to you, your present life includes some beautiful and sweet moments like I described. And you are practicing how you find parts of beauty without denying the dark sides in your life.
In my neighborhood, I am sometimes allowed to cherish sunshine or clean air only during this sweet time. To glimpse the hidden beauty in this area, I started to get up early. These many practices made me able to find beauty in the world and in people. I even cherish darkness in the world. Because I deeply understand that it is the “parent” of beauty and sweetness through my experiences.
Having true appreciation towards darkness makes me feel like royalty. Usually appreciation for anything makes us move forward. But in particular, appreciation for darkness has given me a strong power to stay in the here and now. It also supports my fragility, so I can see everything in me as a resource. Finally I deeply appreciate the challenges for a city girl in this rural town.