My sense of discipline has helped me.  For example, it has helped me to walk every other day.  Discipline has helped me maintain my health for a long time.  However, I have wanted to change such fixed everyday rituals to more appropriate adapted ones for my body based on my needs for the day. 

In Japan, tofu makers change the amount of water to soy beans to make tofu every day, because every day we have different weather. I think that that is a more natural method than doing the same thing regardless of weather.

I wanted to be like the tofu maker for my body. They feel the conditions of both soy beans and the weather.  I also wanted to sense the condition of my body and the weather more.

I have believed that repeating the same thing changes the quality itself. And it happened like a thunderclap.  Suddenly I became like a tofu maker. Now I can prepare the most appropriate exercise routine like yoga, walking and stretching for the day. I can stop at the comfortable level of the day.

This is a new dimension for me. It is very fun!

初出：2019年10月25日

I saw a documentary about Seymour Bernstein who was a pianist. And his impactful words and his lace-like piano sound touched my heart. I was especially impressed by these following words: “I remember I became aware when practice went well, everything in life seemed harmonized. When it didn’t, I was out of sorts. The real essence of who we are resides in our talent, whatever that talent is.”

When he felt that he was satisfied with being a pianist, he decided to quit and started to live as a piano teacher. I thought that such a way of living was something I should pursue.

I could feel the love he had for discipline was his way of living. Sometimes amateurs start something which they love. But professionals try to transcend love for their job, so they think that discipline is important and pushes them. Discipline is essentially different from punishment. Because discipline comes from inside of us.

And also I think that we don’t have love in us. Love is like the air. When we love something, it is like being wrapped in air which is called love by us. It is mostly the same as wrapping a gift. So we cannot rely on that. But discipline holds us like the arms of a father. It is more reliable and realistic.

Do you have any ideal vision which you want to pursue as a human?

初出：2019年9月29日

今回もゲリラ投稿です。（新しい記事の意味です）

クレジットカードの明細など、請求書の明細を見るのが怖いと「私はお金が苦手なのかも」「これからお金で苦労したらどうしよう」と、お金の前で無力な気がして、妄想が膨らみやすいかもしれません。

そういう方は「5,000円でやりくりして」「14時までに仕上げよう」のように、限度があると、自由を奪われたような感覚になるから「せめて自分のお金くらい」と使っていたら、請求書の明細を見ると、驚くようになったのかもしれません。

そんなみなさんに、朗報です。限度を決めて何かに取り組むと、あなたの意思が強くなります。立派な脳トレの一つで、脳のとある部分がメキメキ成長します。

もしそれで、どこか嬉しくなったなら、これからは予算という限度を持って生活できるでしょう。予算を決めて、予算内に収めようとすると、いずれ「計算しないでカゴに商品を入れていたのに、全部で4,951円！5,000円の予算内だった」となっていきます。そして、必要に応じて、予算を上げたり下げられるようになります。だから、予算に縛られなくなります。

「請求がこわい」「お金が苦手」という方は、予算組みしましょう！「一番不透明な食費だけ、予算を決めよう」「カード払いの今月の予算は、〜円」のように、小さく始めるのがコツです。そうして、自分の脳を成長させてあげましょう。

冷静になればわかると思いますが、予算なしの感覚だけで「これくらいなら大丈夫」ラインを狙っていれば、そのギャンブル感に驚いたりこわくなって、当然です。ガソリンの量を確認せずに、秘境の地へドライブに行きますか？